Friday, December 31, 2010
Old Endings and New Beginnings
Wow, it's been a while since I've last been here. Do people still visit this place?
Anyway, it's quite fitting I think, to have this post at the end of the year to close this place. Yup, I'm moving. Or rather, I've already moved. This place is actually very dear to me because it's seen me through so much. From Olevels to Alevels to first year of University. From First Love to idiot boys to idiot girls to heaven knows what else, it's all here. But change is good. And I think this year more than another year has changed me so.
Looking back, I must say, 2010 was horrible to me. It had its glorious moments no doubt but more often than not, I hated 2010. So much happened, so much angst, so much crying, so much of bad things just keep happening that most times, I didn't even know how to hold them together. I think back and I realise I don't remember a lot of things about 2010 simply because my brain refuses to remember them. The strange thing is, 2010 was supposed to be a good year. It was supposed to be one I'll remember for good reasons. 2nd year of Uni, turning 20, first first year in my life, compromise and reassurance and time.
I never believed in the whole new year = new start thing because I don't think having a new year is the same as pressing the restart button but this time, I'll like to think so. If God gave me so much pain in 2010, surely 2011 would be better, if only slightly?
2010 has seen me be a different person. I'm stronger at least and a little bit wiser. I know I'm a little harder and slightly more bitter, less trusting (not that I was that trusting before.) and because of that, less forgiving. Strange enough, I'm more accepting and my love, it'd always be there. I'll always have love to give and this year has made me sure of that. I'm not proud of the person I was in 2010 but I trust 2011 Nessa would do a better job.
So here is to the new year. Whatever shit that might come my way, I'm ready. I was truly afraid once but I don't think I am anymore. So here's to the new year, to whatever that's coming, to the tears I'm going to cry, the laughs I'm going to have, the songs I'll love, the friends I'll cherish, the Love I will have, the internal dances I'll entertain myself with, the monologues my brain does with me, the good times, the bad, the what-the-fuck, all of that, here's to you 2011.
Have a great 2011 everyone. :)
Oh last thing! I've moved! I'm not deleting this place obviously and MAYBE I'll pop by once in a while with some words but it won't be regular if ever. I'm not entirely ready to tell the entire world where I've moved to but you can always try guessing! :D When I'm ready, I'll update my facebook website info. :) I guess the most important people already know where I've went and if you don't, you can always ask me personally. :)
Well, I guess this is it. Farewell Unwrittenn. It's been good. So good. But this is goodbye. Goodbye. ♥
Wow, it's been a while since I've last been here. Do people still visit this place?
Anyway, it's quite fitting I think, to have this post at the end of the year to close this place. Yup, I'm moving. Or rather, I've already moved. This place is actually very dear to me because it's seen me through so much. From Olevels to Alevels to first year of University. From First Love to idiot boys to idiot girls to heaven knows what else, it's all here. But change is good. And I think this year more than another year has changed me so.
Looking back, I must say, 2010 was horrible to me. It had its glorious moments no doubt but more often than not, I hated 2010. So much happened, so much angst, so much crying, so much of bad things just keep happening that most times, I didn't even know how to hold them together. I think back and I realise I don't remember a lot of things about 2010 simply because my brain refuses to remember them. The strange thing is, 2010 was supposed to be a good year. It was supposed to be one I'll remember for good reasons. 2nd year of Uni, turning 20, first first year in my life, compromise and reassurance and time.
I never believed in the whole new year = new start thing because I don't think having a new year is the same as pressing the restart button but this time, I'll like to think so. If God gave me so much pain in 2010, surely 2011 would be better, if only slightly?
2010 has seen me be a different person. I'm stronger at least and a little bit wiser. I know I'm a little harder and slightly more bitter, less trusting (not that I was that trusting before.) and because of that, less forgiving. Strange enough, I'm more accepting and my love, it'd always be there. I'll always have love to give and this year has made me sure of that. I'm not proud of the person I was in 2010 but I trust 2011 Nessa would do a better job.
So here is to the new year. Whatever shit that might come my way, I'm ready. I was truly afraid once but I don't think I am anymore. So here's to the new year, to whatever that's coming, to the tears I'm going to cry, the laughs I'm going to have, the songs I'll love, the friends I'll cherish, the Love I will have, the internal dances I'll entertain myself with, the monologues my brain does with me, the good times, the bad, the what-the-fuck, all of that, here's to you 2011.
Have a great 2011 everyone. :)
Oh last thing! I've moved! I'm not deleting this place obviously and MAYBE I'll pop by once in a while with some words but it won't be regular if ever. I'm not entirely ready to tell the entire world where I've moved to but you can always try guessing! :D When I'm ready, I'll update my facebook website info. :) I guess the most important people already know where I've went and if you don't, you can always ask me personally. :)
Well, I guess this is it. Farewell Unwrittenn. It's been good. So good. But this is goodbye. Goodbye. ♥
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9:22 PM.